[[I’m sorry I haven’t replied in a long time. Kind of going to leave this account here, I can’t bring myself to take down Teddy.]]]
Becca
Becca was one of the first people that I rp’d with.
I spoke with her last night and she said she’d been sick for a bit with a sinus infection. It wasn’t really anything dire, she said that it was just an infection that took some pills. I never thought that that would be the last time I’d ever talk to her.
We became close friends after only a few times talking in asks, and after that we just joked around and she was there- BANG, my Billy.
She’ll always be there to me, She’ll always be perfect.
I always squeaked when she would come online and pop a hello in my inbox, or prodded me about posting or replying in skype. She always had something funny to add and always spoke her mind.
Becca- I didn’t tell you this enough- But I love you. I love you so fucking much. You are ALWAYS going to be a part of my life because you were an integral part of it- even when we hadn’t spoken for some time.
I’ll never forget laughing about never being able to finish threads, laughing about stupid posts and ideas. Stuff like that never leaves and shouldn’t ever have to.
Becca bbu I love you and I know you know we all love you still. Even if we can’t be there with you right now- You know it. I know you do.
You have to.
I miss you a lot. So much.
I love you Bee.
What I forgot to remember.
“We haven’t- I miss this… A lot. I really honestly miss you Billy. I’ve been an idiot.”
“I miss you too Teddy… I just… You’re always gone, so I’m inclined to agree there…”His hands cupped around the side of his head, bringing in for a few kisses. ”Are you finally going to stay home for a while? I miss falling asleep next to you at night.”He whispered.
“Yeah. I am. I miss sleeping next to you too. I dont’ like sleeping in an empty bed…” he sighed and kissed at him in turn.
Source: scarletwiccan
What I forgot to remember.
“It’s great to have you home, Billy, I’m sorry I’m not what you need.” Teddy held the other after letting him strip him. “I love you so much. I need you, Bee.”
“Not what I need? That’s a little dramatic. Of course I need you…”He leaned in to kiss his cheek, holding him in return. He let out a chuckle after a moment. ”I don’t think we’ve been alone like this in a long time.”
“We haven’t- I miss this… A lot. I really honestly miss you Billy. I’ve been an idiot.”
Source: scarletwiccan
What I forgot to remember.
“We’ll take the night to clean and rest you up, love. Lets settle into bed with a movie, okay?” Teddy scooped him up once more and moved them to the bedroom, stripping them both with Chief in tow.
Billy nodded in agreement, helping Teddy take off his own clothes, holding onto his husband’s shoulders. ”Thanks T… I love you… It’s really good to be home…”He sniffed again, finally managing a smile.
“It’s great to have you home, Billy, I’m sorry I’m not what you need.” Teddy held the other after letting him strip him. “I love you so much. I need you, Bee.”
Source: scarletwiccan
What I forgot to remember.
“No, I doubt that they do- they’re smart kids. I’m sure Vision has everything under control.” He rubbed his back and smiled softly.
“O-Okay… C-Can we ask about them tomorrow…I-I don’t think they need to s-see me like this.”He sniffed, wiping at his face. ”Ugh, I feel ridiculous now… Ridiculous and tired, and just…. ugh”He clung to Teddy for a while longer, just to block out the rest of the world.
“We’ll take the night to clean and rest you up, love. Lets settle into bed with a movie, okay?” Teddy scooped him up once more and moved them to the bedroom, stripping them both with Chief in tow.
Source: scarletwiccan
What I forgot to remember.
“Calm down, Billy, relax- you forgot who I am?” he tapped the wizards nose gently and smiled at him. “Nose like a blood hound. Plus we got Chief here.”
He frowned when his own nose was poked, but relaxed. ”Or we could call my dad, he’s probably already taken care of it…”He rested his cheek on his shoulder again. ”They must hate me…. They probably think I just abandoned them…”
“No, I doubt that they do- they’re smart kids. I’m sure Vision has everything under control.” He rubbed his back and smiled softly.
Source: scarletwiccan
What I forgot to remember.
“It’s alright, Just calm down, you’ll get to all those things when you get to it, alright? You have had a long time of hell so just calm down, take things one step at a time. Most importantly- the kids, love.”
“Fuck, right the kids, they’re at….”He froze on that sentence. ”I don’t know where the kids are.”His mouth went dry as he spoke. ”I lost the kids… they’ll never forgive me, they’ll think I abandoned them.”The tears started anew. ”T-This is not a good week, this is really not a good week…”
“Calm down, Billy, relax- you forgot who I am?” he tapped the wizards nose gently and smiled at him. “Nose like a blood hound. Plus we got Chief here.”
Source: scarletwiccan
What I forgot to remember.
Teddy furrowed his brow “Shhhh. Billy, stop. Calm down. Listen to me, Alright?” He waited for the other to see if he would comply or if Teddy needed to run him a hot bath with a truck load of soothing salts and oils.
Flinching when he was told to stop and listen, Billy pulled back to look at him. He took a deep breath, swallowing the growing lump in his throat, nodding and slowly letting out the breath he’d been holding. ”O-Okay Teddy. Okay. Sorry, I-I’m sorry.”He answered quietly, pushing his face against his shoulder.
“It’s alright, Just calm down, you’ll get to all those things when you get to it, alright? You have had a long time of hell so just calm down, take things one step at a time. Most importantly- the kids, love.”
Source: scarletwiccan
What I forgot to remember.
“Sunday.” he frowned and nuzzled the top of his head before scooping him up and bringing him inside. “It’s been a while, Billy. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” He softly rocked him and curled up on the couch with him in his lap.
“I’ve been gone since Tuesday…”He took a few deep breaths, hiding his face against Teddy, suddenly feeling very small, legs pulled tightly to his own chest. ”I’ve been missing, I haven’t seen the kids, I didn’t even say goodbye or anything….” The tears are falling now, making his headache worse. ”Fuck… SHIT… I have a million calls to make a-and I gotta pay Clint back, and I gotta apologize for calling him a lady.”
Teddy furrowed his brow “Shhhh. Billy, stop. Calm down. Listen to me, Alright?” He waited for the other to see if he would comply or if Teddy needed to run him a hot bath with a truck load of soothing salts and oils.
Source: scarletwiccan